“Goodbye” said the note stuck on the fridge
which he saw with his sleepy eyes, he rubbed his eyes as if that would rub away the sleep…
but there was no sleep left in them .. just like a slap bring all the sense into a drunk .. it was a slap which had woken him up after 20 years of sleep.
He had always taken her for granted .. not for today or tomorrow but almost all their life together after all they never stayed apart even for a week after the marriage…
They loved each other very much but their love developed cracks when their family refused to grow.
They were not blessed with a baby and even when she wanted to adopt a baby he had opposed her saying that he would not be able to love someone Else’s baby like his own and he would try to co-operate with her in their life and in the difficult time.
But soon he forgot about his own promise and started abusing her whenever presented with a chance ..
In his own grief he forgot that how much she must be hurting.
He started drinking as well
He slumped in a sleep which lasted exactly till this moment when he saw the note..
He tried calling what few friends they had but no one knew about her or where she went…
He tried ads in paper and Police but he never got a clue about her
Slowly and slowly one year passed..
Somehow he did not give up on her … also he wasn’t at all bad to her for last 5 years. He had stopped drinking and started behaving nicely to her. Within the past year he had thought about all the moments of their life and although he understood that he was horrible to her, he could never understand why did she choose to leave him after so many years, in their 40s when their life was finally good after so many years..
then as she had left .. without a sound or trail then in the same way he received a letter from her ..
he tried to find from where the letter had come from but to know avail..
With shaking hands he started reading the letter…it said..
Yes its true after all these years and for all your behavior, I still love you. I know you were also hurting as bad as me but being a man you could not cry like me to ease your pain so you started drinking and starting hitting me and tried to find all the wrong ways to ease your pain and vent your anger on God. But even though I was hurting inside, I knew that I had to bring you back to life before I could find a life for myself.
I don’t know if you have fallen into the hands of your bad habits once again or not. I hope not.But I am very happy that when I left you, you had stopped drinking and left all of your bad habits. You were also very good to me and you must surely be wondering by now, why did I leave you then and not when you were at your most horrible behavior?
hmmmm.. so to answer your question, I did not leave till you were all better because I still love you and if I had left you at that time, you must have surely drunk yourself to death by now. And I had to leave you after that because I had already given you all I had to offer and now I wanted some time for myself. I might come back to you after few years but that time is still away. I have to still fill the wounds and ease the pain given to me by your hatred towards me.
You will also be happy to know that I have adopted a very beautiful girl and I have named her Asha as a symbol of my Hope for you. She loves you very much and wants to meet you but she is very intelligent girl for her two years of age and knows that she will meet you when the time will come.
You must be wondering what am I doing. I am working as a caretaker in an old age home and I love it here, all the people here are hurt but still after some time they stop worrying and start enjoying their life. Here nobody is rude to anyone because everyone knows each others pain and do what ever they can to ease that pain. I love it here because people just come here everybody accepts and welcomes them and nobody says Goodbye.
Be good and stay good for when I comeback I want you to be just like I left you. I just want that day to be like I woke up after a long sleep.
Forever Yours and Only yours”